♥ dmnchoir
I’m back in Singapore!! OMG, I miss dmnchoir.. I know that’s a little too crazy, but they’re really a bunch of guys whom I’ll never forget, seriously. I’ll talk less and let the pictures talk. :)
RAWWWR!!!
Really had fun for this trip and at least I didn’t regret going for it. :D To end this off, I would like to say…
I♥DMNCHOIR!!!
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crashing
“Today, the whole world came crashing down on me, so I got some tape and stuck the map back onto the wall.”
This quote is seriously cute. At least for me. Oh well, I forgot to blog on 29th Nov, which was my blog’s second anniversary, lol. Anyway, I’m back, to blog before departing for Prague. Actually there’s nothing much nowadays, really. Just going back for choir for the past few weeks. I didn’t expect time to pass so quickly.. It used to be a few months, it used to be a few weeks, and now, it’s tomorrow, to the day we’ve been waiting for. Time really flies without you realizing. It sounds as if I’m feeling sad, but actually I have a mixed feeling about this. So, I guess it’s best if you don’t make any assumption on this. :)
Btw, it’s kinda cute that the “falling snow” for wordpress is back! I think you can see it, unless you’re blind. I like this kind of thing, simple, yet cute. Oh my, I keep using the word ‘cute’ and it actually sounds horrible for me to even mention it. It’s just not my kind of word yea, hah.
Anyway, here’s the itinerary.
Monday 7/12
Meeting at Changi Airport at 9pm. And depart to Frankfurt.
Tuesday 8/12
Arrival in Prague. Acclimatization.
Wednesday 9/12
Acclimatization
Thursday 10/12
Festival Opening Concert at 1800.
Performance – 1) Audette Gaudatte, 2) O Magnum Mysterium, 3) Ping An Ye, 4) Irish Blessing
Friday 11/12
Friendship Concert and Gala Concert
Saturday 12/12
*Competition from 0800 to 1600
Award Ceremony at 1700
Sunday 13/12
Sightseeing in Prague! :D
Monday 14/12
Depart for Dresden and sightseeing! :D
Tuesday 15/12
Sightseeing! :D
Wednesday 16/12
More sightseeing and depart to Frankfurt
Thursday 17/12
Depart to Singapore
HOME SWEET HOME!
Well, I have to say that I really have a character that is hard to decipher.
Now at this point of time, I have a sudden disgust of someone. I don’t know, but it seem to be quite obvious if I’m angry/disgusted/pissed/sad with someone. But if one doesn’t know that I’m angry/disgusted/pissed/sad with him, he’s probably an idiot. I feel rather lost now. I don’t know what to do. But I just hope everything would be fine after today as tmr is the big day.
Homesick? I guess that wouldn’t happen to me. Although I did miss my bed and mom’s cooking when I was in sec one. Haha. As mentioned, “sec one”. I’m now sec three going to sec four, and I guess I still have a lot to learn about myself. I guess the people in my group are rather fine, and I just hope that none of them would get the whole group grounded. :/
Anyway, finished packing most of the things, and left with some last minute stuffs to be packed tmr. I’d probably post tmr on iPhone if I feel like it. :D
SHINDONG!<3 RICKY!<3
I wholeheartedly hope that this trip would be an unforgettable one, in a good way..
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new phone, new life
Lol, just randomly blogging here as I just got the new iPhone. Quite cool though, in fact, I love it!! Haha. As for choir nowadays, *sigh*.. Seriously speaking, the concert was very disappointing.. But we’ll nvr give up. :D See you guys real soon and I was very happy to see the veggies!! :D
Well, I guess God is really not taking a glance at me.. Where are you when I needed you the most? 10 days left to tour and we’re only at this standard. What’s wrong? I was rather mad with myself for not bring strict in sectional and I am really trying my best.. I don’t want history to repeat itself, really. I hope everyone have really learnt their lessons this time.. God bless everyone~
SHINDONG!<3
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mango
Hey there. I’ve realized that I’ve blogged yesterday, but nevermind. Blogging two consecutive days wouldn’t kill, would it? Here I am, back again, into this cozy space. Nah, talking crap. But… Today’s choir practice was also one of the best I’ve ever had! And 24 days to tour! Omg, I’m getting really excited. I really hope that this trip would be a really great and enjoyable one! – of course, without saying, minus that complacency. Alright, back to topic, today’s choir was a breeze! Okay, a weird choir of words, but I have to say, it was one of the best choir practices we’ve ever had in the AVT. I think I’m acting spastically now cos’ I’m smiling in front of the screen. Okay, well, it was good, I would say, but we will not be complacent. Never. Once bitten, twice shy, I would say.
Oh man, speaking of choir, I’m gonna wear a chinese costume for tour!~ Okay, I’m not gonna wear chiongsam, of course. I would definitely look spastic in them, lol. Anyway, I’m still looking for people to borrow from. If you happen to know someone who has it, or even better, you have it, can you please lend it to me or inform me? I would really appreciate it.. Really. By the way, (if anyone is really lending me) it has to be at least three quarter long for the sleeves and the shorts, and best if it’s covered everywhere. Lol, and it has to be maroon or gold (lol) colour; as I reckon chinese costume wouldn’t be in green..?
Hah, I’m making a fool of myself seriously for mentioning it here. But I would really hope that someone who has the costume would see this. :/ Anyway, just random, I MISS THE VEGGIES! Lol, I wonder how they’re doing. Heard that their bio paper sucked, but well, God bless and good luck to them. Wish them luck seriously. Will be praying for them. Good luck veggies~
I am really tired now, trying to ask for the chinese costume.. So I shall resume blogging another day. :/
When life gets hard, screw it.
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sunny
Just a random title again. Don’t question on it. School’s finally ended! Like, yay!!! Alright, but there are still three literature essays to be done. :/ But it should be okay cos’ lit essays are way better than ss or history ones, hah. :) Updated on my profile, so do take a look at it. I’m kind of free now due to the following things:
1) No longer need to wake up early for school cos’ choir starts at 2! ♥
2) No longer need to see stupid people! – in some class
3) Life would only be choir, choir and choir from today onwards!
These things make me happy enough, really. Little things make me happy, but little things make me disappointed too. :/ Quite a sensitive person, I admit. In fact, I really think I am.
Well, not feeling well these few days, and I’ve gone to see the doctor just now for the second time. Got some prescription for the trip too. I hope I can get well soon. :/ I mean, I will. After recovering, I’ll promise not to fall sick again, really. It’s really torturous not to sing. Currently drinking 4 litres of water daily and I’m not joking. I’m practically going to the toilets more often than before?! Anyway, just glad that some people actually cared for me and so sorry for causing so much inconvenience! I’m saying it as if falling sick is a sin, but for choir, I am willing to treat it as a sin. But I know that the efforts will be paid off, minus the complacency. I’m really excited for Europe Tour ‘09! Lol, good luck everyone!
Hah, speaking of choir, I thought we had one of the best choir practices on Friday! It’s was so funny and we did not sing badly. :) I kind of have the feeling that even though this trip has no veggies, I’m going to enjoy it. Cos’ I’m one of the group leaders. -.- Weird choice, but I can’t say anything, hah, cos’ I’m the “experienced” one who fell during the last trip, hahaha! Lol.
Alright, I’ll just stop here.
Shindong dong!~
Happiness is a choice, not a question.
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cooking? cooking!
Lol, stop questioning about the title of this post seriously, it’s just a song of SuJu. Anyway, I’ve realized that I haven’t blogged last Friday, due to tight schedule, hah. And here I am! (with this stupid internet) But oh well, school turned out to be quite fine, although I turned up late for school *ops*. Haha, the new English teacher is nice though. I like her. Hope I won’t regret saying this, lol. Choir today was also surprisingly okay. I mean, at least we didn’t get any scoldings right? :/ I hate to get scolded. C’mon, who likes being scolded?! Alright, I’m kinda crazy.
Yesterday, one of my juniors asked me what I think of taking Literature in sec three. Actually, I don’t really know how to reply her. But I think that it’s important to love Literature before you even touch it. I mean, if you have no interest in this subject, why force yourself to take it? It would be a torture to do so, I think. And if there is one subject that I would not take unless forced to, it’s Chemistry. And I’m already being forced to, lol. I don’t really hate it, but I just don’t get the gist of it, seriously. It makes me kinda stupid. Or am I stupid? Actually, I don’t really think that I’m stupid, it’s just that I need more time than others to get something right. Slow? Perhaps, I can’t deny it..
Actually, I don’t really know what to say here, and I’ve used many ‘actually’s, I realized, haha. I have also realized that I don’t go to blogskins.com anymore, which is quite a good thing, I guess. Firstly, it stops me from having an urge to create blogskins and secondly, it helps me to avoid sucky (?!) people. Alright, there’s no such word, so don’t copy me okay, lol. Being lame here, but who cares?
I’m quite excited about tour all of a sudden, I don’t really know why, hah. But it’s a good thing, I guess. Nostalgic memories filled my mind again, aww… Anyway something I definitely would not forget is to get the seniors souvenirs! :D Miss them loads, really… Going to tour would be different, as compared to sec one, really. I can no longer be the ‘blur’ one, but the ‘alert’ one, lol. I must look out for others and not the other way round. It would be different, but I think I would be enjoying it cos there are still ucp! :)
I’m getting tired and I think this should be it. Going to school at 10 tmr! I don’t wanna be late anymore, hah.
Shindong dong dong dong dong!~
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angels and devils
These few days at school were fine, I think. Choir was surprisingly okay! Just that I couldn’t sleep. Amnesia? I don’t really know. I worry about A LOT OF THINGS. I don’t know why. :(
I don’t wanna talk about results. They were such disappointments. I just don’t get it why I can still fail for Chem despite studying so much for it. It’s so depressing. Do you understand? When you’ve put in so much effort, you don’t wish to fail. But eventually, you still failed. Do you know that kind of feeling? I actually ’sacrificed’ my studying time for A Math and spent the time on Chem. I regret doing that seriously. I suck at making choices. I suck.
Despite having results making me depressed, I have my friends and family who are there for me. I’m so glad. Really. People who understand me are hard to find, cos’ I’m a rather temperamental and emotional person. One very good example of someone who doesn’t understand me is my dad, sad to say. He always thinks that he’s right and refuses to listen to others. This eventually led to few conversations between the two of us. :/ It sucks to say this, seriously, but I really don’t understand why my mom is the total opposite of him. She’s 99.99% understanding, even though I sometimes scold her in my heart, unintentionally. I love her seriously. I love my mom. She’s not very educated, but she doesn’t make me feel embarrassed at all. In truth, I’m proud to have her as my mom, and it’s the other person who makes me feel embarrassed all the time, especially when he let out strings of profanities. Touching on this, I really want to say that I hate people who are vulgar, especially when they let out strings of hokkien profanities. Ew, speaking of it makes me nauseous. Alright, stop talking about this, Brenda. (crazy?!)
Anyway, other than having my family, I still have my wonderful friends. Aww.. Ain’t it touching? Lol, actually not really cos’ I haven’t even say what they have done. I would really like to thank them for being so understanding, especially YL cos’ she knows that I feel rather depressed as I’ve failed Chem, and she’s like my ’shield’ for all those things that I don’t wanna hear. :) I’m so glad to have these people. And Adolphus, stop being sad, cos’ like what you’ve said, “Failure is the most important ingredient for success.” Lol, I should also tell myself this. Hah, of course other than these two people, there’s still UCP! (okay, YL is also in it, hah) They such funny guys, really. I don’t know how to put it, but,… They’re really nice for being so understanding! Cos’ I know that I’m person who’s not easy to talk over (?) Alright, I should say, I know that I’m a very bad-tempered person, really. I know that, I know. But thanks to them, I’ve changed since secondary one. I used to be someone who was jealous of practically everything, from friends of friends (?!) to other trivial things. But I’ve reflected a lot for these years, and I’m glad that I have them, ‘Usual-Choir-People’. Nonetheless, there’s still another group of friends who are freaking busy now, and they’re the Veggies! I miss them loads! Hope to see them soon! :)
I love my friends, cos’ they’re the ones who really understand me!
Aww, ain’t that touching? Lol, maybe not to you, but it is to me… Anyway, I have a task which I hope to accomplish in the future — to help people. No matter what it is, I want to make a difference in their lives. To make them smile, to make them happy, to make them feel that life is still worthwhile as there are people who love them. You may be asking, “Why the hell have Brenda became so kind?!” or “Why is Brenda doing these?!” And the reason for this is that I want to share the love that I have, seriously. I think that I’m really fortunate to have so many people loving me, though some just don’t admit, hah. Back to the point, I want to share the love! LOVE LOVE LOVE!~ Okay, crazy Brenda!!
Okay. So after reading post, are you motivated to share your love with others? (LOL!) Just kidding. But mind you, “You only live once, so live it meaningfully.” Understand? Lol, I can seriously be a motivational speaker blogger. Right? Hah, I can’t really speak my words, so… yea.
Shindong rocks! – Lol, not replacing Ricky, but he’s added to my favourite list!
Don’t give up, you have to carry on.
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you only live once
Another lonely marking day. It was definitely boring. While everyone was out playing and having fun, I was staying at home in front of the computer like a dumb idiot. But it actually helped to make me happier. As mentioned before, I’ve lost hope in something which I loved a lot, and it didn’t make a difference after exams. I loathe to see that face. I loathe to get back the same feeling again. Am I that useless that you actually look down on me? Am I? I hope I don’t get to see your face ever again. I hate you. Maybe there wouldn’t be much change on the outer side, but deep inside, I know that everything have changed for me. I’ve officially become the most useless person.
Oh well, I should stop thinking about that since it makes me so depressed. I only hope to graduate as soon as possible and leave this place where I would only remember the happy times. Anyway, school is starting tomorrow, omg. I hate to think of it, but I think that we humans, have to face the reality no matter what. We can’t escape from it, can we? And the lessons would extend from 2nd Nov to 12th Nov. But choristers would be missing quite a lot due to the tour. ARGH~
Alright, I should resume the friday-blogging as usual, even though today is not friday, hah. But I doubt no one will read my blog. It’s just a place for me to be happier, I guess. Prove me wrong by leaving a comment if you’re reading this. :) But I won’t have any expectation cos’ I don’t want any disappointment. :D
Anyway, Shindong of SuJu has cheered me up, surprisingly. Lol, I thought I was the first to say that I wouldn’t be “into” the Korea wave? But nah, it’s okay. Shindong is a funny guy~ Nonetheless, Ricky still rocks! :)
:D
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instant death
Just as I thought things were going to be fine, I experienced the heartache. The instant death. It’s as if someone pulled the trigger and the bullet went through my heart. It felt so pain. The incessant pain that I am experiencing. It makes me feel like dying. I feel like crying. But I love this.
Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile, even though it’s breaking. You’ll get by… If you smile with your fear and sorrow, smile and maybe tomorrow you’ll find that life is still worthwhile if you’ll just light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness although a tear may be ever so near that’s the time you must keep on trying. Smile, what’s the use of crying.
Maybe life is still worthwhile. Maybe things are not as bad. But I’ll never be the same person ever again, I know I’ll never. Things have changed, so are the people. So is the way they treat me. As friend, or as stranger? I need some time to think of all these. I really need time. T-I-M-E. Why time just couldn’t wait for me? Why can’t anyone other than my family understand me? Why can’t I not be here? Why can’t everything be perfect?
On the other hand, I’ll be going on
hiatus
I really need sometime to make things easier for myself and stop thinking so much.
At the meantime, I’ll be preparing for EOY too. Good luck guys, and I love this place where I can talk freely.
“距离并不可怕，可怕的是心越来越远。- 这就是世界上最遥远的距离。”
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pull that trigger
“If it’s a broken heart, then face it.” – Just a random lyrics, but rather meaningful to me. Currently, I think the ’study mode’ of me has switched on. Argh, I don’t want! Ironically, I feel like graduating asap, and leaving this place asap. I don’t know why. I feel rather lost, I think. I don’t belong to anywhere. I think I’m just gonna work hard and not expect anything, except academically. No one knows the reason for me being like this. I’ve actually lost hope in something I had always been looking forward to. I wasn’t like this. I knew it wasn’t, and I had enjoyed it a lot more than now. I don’t know why. All I look forward to going to school is to see my friends. That’s all I need. That’s all I care. That’s all I know.
Alright, enough of all those stupid stuffs. They are so demoralizing. Anyway, I’ve kind of gave up hope on blogskins.com cos’ I realized that the blogskinners there suck big time. Argh, mentioning of them just makes me uncomfortable. And seriously, look at the SOTD. The last time I saw it, it has only achieved one pathetic favourite. What a “good” SOTD. Alright, I have no rights to comment about it cos’ I can’t even create nice skins. But whatever. I don’t give a damn about it. Seriously. I realized that it’s quite contradicting that I keep saying that I’ll stop blogskinning when I actually don’t, hah. But who cares anyway, right?
Going out to study with Doreen and YL tomorrow and hope that it would be productive.
Growing is painful.
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